My sweet boy,
   today your Dad and I
Did something no parent 
   should ever have to do
Today, Mommy and Daddy 
   had to bury you

I beheld the finality of your little white coffin
   so small, just like you
Covered in flowers to honor you

I broke at the sight, a shadow of the light
   that was your presence in our lives

The weather was perfect, just like you
   How was it the sun could shine so bright
      when my sunshine 
         was you?

The LORD gave you your wings
He set you free, 
   so you could fly
yet, my heart was not ready 
   to say goodbye

I told you today, it's not goodbye forever
   only see you later

Mommy made a promise 
   she will always come back
      to visit you

I may not come everyday 
   as I did
   while you were 
   in the NICU

Where you are 
   You are at peace
      You don't need
         intensive care
            anymore

no more nurses
no more procedures
   you are healed 

For you to be fully healed,
   Mommy's heart had to break

I can't pretend 
   to understand 
      why

Someday, Carter Matthew,
By the grace of God,
I will be there
   to meet you 
   in the sky

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